A Note From KDHD

So I haven't been very good at posting lately...

I'm gonna go ahead and say it's because I haven't been on ADHD medication for three and a half weeks now, which is the longest I've gone without since third grade.

I've had to quit taking them because my heart's been freaking out lately, averaging at 120 bpm while resting. Since I took Adderall, my doctor was pretty confident it was involved somehow, so he forbade me from taking it ever again.

This is a problem.

See, I like taking my meds. They let me do things I can't normally focus long enough to do, like exercise, not eat so damn much, only sleep for seven to eight hours, sit through an entire episode of something other than Game of Thrones, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, or Arrested Development, remember to call my doctor about getting new meds or about my heart test results, or you know, write a reasonable blog post.

I need to call my doctor, but the problem with that is, I'm afraid of the phone. Not in a crazy person kind of way, but I really really really really really really really really really hate calling people on the phone, especially businesses.

I always feel like an idiot, and I'm completely incapable of regular human speech once there's actually a person on the line. I feel like I owe whoever I'm calling an apology after the call is over for my inability to function when a phone is in my hand.

I wish I could just text the doctor's office.

So usually, I procrastinate until I forget, and then it all works out. Unfortunately, that's not going to work this time around, seeing as it's about my heart and head, and both are pretty important.

Anyway, I know my last post was an apology ramble too, and I am actually working on a real post, so all I can say is, I'm sorry for this post. Better ones to come.